Mrs. Amber Mathinia

Today, one year ago, I over heard the shocking news that Mrs. Amber Mathenia was killed in a car wreck. I never thought anything like that could ever happen to our dear sweet Amber. I miss her very much and wish she could be here today. But that's what God had planned from the beginning so that's what's best. I know she's very happy to be where she is right now! I remember it like it was yesterday.

Mr. Loyd called us at home. He was talking to Dad. All of the sudden Dad just froze and had a very shocked look on his first. Before that we had heard him say, "Amber? yeah what about her?" He pulled Momma into there room and shut the door. Me and my brothers didn't think anything about it. Momma came out with tears in her eyes asking where the church directory was. Malachi said, "What's wrong? Is Mrs. Amber hurt?" Momma just nodded her head "yes" and walked off. She wouldn't tell us what was wrong. She went back into her room and shut the door. I went to their door and heard Mom and Dad talking about it. I wasn't able to really make out what they where saying. This is all I heard, "Amber, Children Hospital to make sure ok."
Nathan came and was making tons of noise and I went back into the den and told them what I had heard. I sat down on the couch thinking of what could have been wrong. My thoughts were, " I wonder if she got hurt and is in the hospital. Well, she said Ellie and Isaac were there. I wonder if she died in a car wreck, wait, what am I thinking? That's impossible." So I went back to my parent's door and listened in as they were talking to someone on the phone. I thought this is my chance to find out what happened. So I listened and heard Momma say, " Did you hear about Amber? Well, she was killed in a car wreck." I froze and made a look, then burst out crying! I went running in the den and told Malachi and Nathan. There was silence (all except the sounds of us crying) for a long while. That night while crying myself to sleep I thought of all the memories of Mrs. Amber. And then thought of the last time I saw her. It was at church on Sunday in the Nursery. I remember I kept looking at her thinking about how much I loved her and was thankful to have met her. And was very happy in nursery that day sitting there listening to her talk and laugh. I would do just about anything to have that one last day with here again. I know every body that knew her misses her. If you didn't get to meet her, all I can say is you would have LOVED her!! I don't have a picture of her right now that I can post.

One last thing to post about then I will be done. My favorite memory of Mrs. Amber.

They were getting ready to leave for Ethiopia, to live. We were having a going away "party" and there was ceremony. Afterward they stood in front of the church and people made a line the tell them goodbye. I didn't get in line though. I wanted to tell Mrs. Amber I loved her, but there were people all around them. So I found paper and a pen and simply wrote the words, "I LOVE YOU!" And handed it to her. I walked off. And I knew she had just read it because as I was walking off I heard a bunch women going Awwwww. Later right before they left. She came to me and hugged me tight. I started crying. She looked me right in the eyes and said, "I love you very much too, Hannah! I'm going to miss you!" I can still hear her say that. Those words that came out of her mouth meant (and still does) so much to me. Every time I think about this memory, I get very teary eyed. And I am crying right now as I write this. I cried every day for a long time after she had died. Being at the funeral and visitation was , to me, like finding out what had happened all over again, but glad I went or else I would be regretting not going now and probably always.

I MISS AND LOVE YOU MRS. AMBER!!!!

~Hannah~